SOMETIMES . . . there is only myself and I am small in this open place and that which keeps me living beats on the outside of me where everyone can see and the color of myself is white sky. So much paleness and evidence of bruising cannot be allowed before innocent neighbors and children. But before they send a clean-up crew with canvas gloves to remove me, the eyesore, suddenly like the drum that begins the First Brahms the edges of everything begin to burn. Lucille Murphy